Regrets, I’ve had a few

Appalling.

The list of stuff I need to get done to transition into retirement/writing a book is getting ridiculously long. Am I missing something? I’ve envied (OK, hated) retired people for the past 2 years at least, noting their slothful ways with disdain (OK, jealousy). And yet the closer I get, the more chores I see that need to be accomplished. Shouldn’t retirement be more restful than this?

Today I finished the second to last story I’ll write for my newspaper, and so I took an hour to begin deleting old computer files, which thank goodness I started early because this task inevitably led me down memory lane, as I began scanning old files before trashing them. Naturally, I occasionally came upon a file I want to keep, but making the call on whether to clog up my home computer by transferring said nostalgic trivia gets old quick. I’m starting a new chapter, right? How much of this dated stuff do I really need? OK, none. But how much of it do I want? What if I purge too much and start to regret it?

I really want to be past this stage — onto my new playing field. But the only way to get there is step by step, whether it’s transferring digital photos and files to taking down the beloved Texas flag from my office wall. I’ve got old correspondence, stacks of newspapers and a whole bulletin board’s worth of memorabilia yet to deal with. And when the last shred of evidence of my presence is finally cleared out of my office, I’ll need to find somewhere here in this already-full house to store it all, while simultaneously arranging some sort of small work space here at home for my future book work. (Unless, I decide to write it propped on my knees in bed, which is pretty dang comfortable, thank you very much.)

Meanwhile, I’m resolutely squelching the bleak feeling that steals in when I contemplate how much I’ll miss my beloved daily lunch table at work, my podmates and a few other co-workers I’m close to. Not to mention my loyal readers!

I know, I know. After all this whining, you’re wondering why the heck I made this choice.

At the time, it seemed like a no-brainer, trust me. And frankly, I’m guessing that about 2 weeks into my book project, I’m going to be so psyched about the new territory ahead that today’s apprehensions will be forgotten.

But we’ll see, won’t we? That’s why I’m blogging. To see how it all turns out.

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6 Responses to “Regrets, I’ve had a few”

  1. marilyn murray willison Says:

    Hi Anne, love your blog – mentioned (and linked) you in mine tonight. Hope we’ll see each other soon…

  2. Terry Knight Says:

    Hey Anne,
    I’m just now reading Thurs. 11/12 paper and see that you’re retiring. I’ve never blogged or read a blog, this is a first for me.
    I’ve enjoyed your column and was fortunate enough to be included with my story about my friend Pam in your column about best friends. I know I’ll miss your column, you’re a kindred spirit to us women of a certain age.
    I wish I could retire! I’m jealous, but happy for you as you enter a new stage in your life. All the best to you while you write the great American novel. Hope you’ll have some guest columns and let us know how your retirement is progressing.

    • annerodgers Says:

      Hi Terry,
      Thanks for the kind words. And thank you so much for visiting a blog on my behalf for your first time. That is so exciting. I will try to post a couple times a week and earn your continued attention. If you’re like me, it’s hard to put anything new in your routine — what with all the activities already on the list! So I really appreciate it.
      Until about 2 months ago, I was jealous of everyone who retired. I had no idea I would do it and just couldn’t see how I could do it. But I’m going to give this a go and have allowed myself 9 months to work on just the book without a “real” job, to see how far I can make it.
      We’ll discover together how it goes. And I might show up in the Post from time to time. You never know.

  3. Carolann Says:

    Anne, WHATEVER you do, or write is FABULOUS!! I look forward to seeing your new book in the #1 slot in the NYT best sellers list!!!

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